Day 300

I haven't written in a long time. I was angry for a while, and very restless, irritable, and discontent. Grace and I have grown a lot in the past 9 months, and we're constantly learning and growing. We've started couple's counseling again, and I moved back in at the beginning of April. In May I … Continue reading Day 300


Deny it, shut it down. 

Every day feels like a fight against biology, and that often spills over into my relationship with Grace. I believe that sex is an important part of an adult relationship. She believes she SA/SANON mantra that sex is optional, and has made made the decision to be abstinent until marriage. Of course, along with that … Continue reading Deny it, shut it down. 

Day 120

Recovery is a rollercoaster. It has been 120 days without orgasm. That probably hasn't happened since high school or maybe junior high school. My body recognizes this, and there have been some negative and uncomfortable physical effects, which I will spare you the details of.  Grace and I are working through reconnecting, and learning while … Continue reading Day 120